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With some planning.
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The series finale of Awake, blew my fucking mind.
It’s been mind fucking me all season and now it’s cancelled. Damn you NBC.
In other news, I went back to the gym today after a long 2 week hiatus.
I am going to be hurting in the morning.
I guess I’ll be moving to PA in the beginning of the year with my parents.
Let’s see how that goes.
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Went to dinner with my parents tonight and we talked about school and moving and all that jazz.
My dad wants me to move back to PA with them and preferably go to school there. That way I can save money since I won’t be paying rent.
I plan to start school next month and I didn’t want to wait any later.
As much as I want my mom gone, I will need her here while I’m in school. Simply because Nugget would be home all day by himself, only eating once before I leave at 6am then at 11pm. No bueno.
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May 22.
I finished my FAFSA. yay for me.
I’m not exactly sure how I am going to get through school working full time and attending school full time.
Work (Mon-Fri) 8 to 5
School (Mon-Fri) 5 to 10
I obviously have to change my work schedule to come in earlier so I can get off at 4.
Nugget is going to hate me. =[
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Today is my mom’s birthday.
I love her.
I came home today to find my dad on my couch. I immediately started crying because I had no idea he was coming to visit.
It’s been a while since we all celebrated a birthday together. I’m thankful for my parents.
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I have a never ending pile of clothes that makes me want to vomit.
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Today was a day.
That’s all.
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3:10pm
I’m exhausted, barely breathing
Holding on to what I believe in
No matter what, you’ll never take that from me.
There is so much truth to this song. When I heard it about a year ago now, I immediately thought of you.
“Some say I’ll be better without you
But they don’t know you like I do
Or at least the sides I thought I knew.”
I tend to justify your actions because I know you are hurting and you want my reaction to them.
“Cause he won’t go
He can’t do it on his own
If this ain’t love, then what is?
We’re willing to take the risk”
yaasssss. I build myself up. And fly around in circles waiting as my heart drops. And my back begins to tingle finally, could this be it
baileysaywhat replied to your post: 136/336
Should you give up or should you just keep chasing pavements? Even if it goes nowhere?
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It’s hard to hear people tell you have the person that you care about is no good for you. For obvious reasons but mainly because you know how caring, funny, and smart he can be. I know that he wants the best for me, particularly for me to go back to school and further my education. I’ve done nothing but tried to be there for him with the bare minimum in return.
When you first meet someone and you instantly click with them so well that you spend everyday with them for a month afterwards only happens in the movies.
When I saw him walk up on Friday night, I literally wanted to scream. When I ran after him on Saturday night, I literally wanted to scream. When I kissed him goodbye, until whenever we cross paths again, I literally wanted to scream.
Our relationship isn’t ideal. We have had our share of fights via text, iChat, email and calls. I know I’ll get over it and it will pass but right now on my 23rd birthday at 12:18pm, I just want to cry.
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Tomorrow is my birthday & I’m not overly excited about it like I normally am.
I learned a lot this weekend about someone who I once knew pretty well. People change and this thing called life takes its natural course of bringing people together or separating them. He and I were separated mentally and physically. Three years is a long time in any regards. Assumptions were made, lies and truths were told. Feelings were hurt. Currently still hurt.
I don’t want to be told, “what a great catch I am,” or how I shouldn’t let him ruin my perspective of this trip but what am I supposed to do?
I’m hurt by what he said, I’m angry that he let it get to that level, I’m just overwhelmed still. I shouldn’t be crying still in the airport as I type this but I am.
I just wanted to spend time with my friend, laugh, joke and enjoy each others time like we used to without any drama. I just always wanted to be there for him. I still do.
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If my mom doesn’t get out of my house soon, I’m going to go fucking crazy.
WTF are you doing all day except sitting on the coach.
You can do that shit in Oklahoma.
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Things that happened today.
- Work.
- Came home to food from my Tumblr Eat Up buddy. So delish.
- Gym.
- Went to Junior Seau’s house. Shed a tear.
- Home.
- I’m tired and hungry.
- Still no fast food and alcohol.
